Happy 2025, everyone. It’s been several months since my last post. Fortunately, I’ve been away for (mostly) happy reasons. But I’m back (for now), because I’ve had a lot of memorable experiences and this is my favorite space to capture those moments.
Last year, my family and I were in the throes of an intense court case to determine guardianship over a relative with dementia. Thankfully, the case was settled and in the aftermath I was able to finally BREATHE and resume my normal life. It felt like I’d been holding my breath for over a year: always tense and bracing myself for the next round of insanity. Once everything was finalized, I could finally plan trips and enjoy the life I had prior to the case. So, to celebrate, I spent nearly 3 weeks away; the trip encompassed a stay in London and a lovely transatlantic cruise back to the US. I can’t wait to give you more details about both of those experiences!
I wasn’t aware how much of my life I’d been living on autopilot, due to devoting all of my excess emotional and physical energy to managing fibromyalgia. I streamlined a lot of my life, and reduced my energy expended so that I could devote everything I had to improving my health. The court case experience showed me how much I’d been doing things on “easy mode”, and, while that was crucial during the healing phase of my life, it left me unprepared for the unpredictability that came my way last year. I knew that I was in need of a change after I spent some time away and rested: the downtime was necessary but I didn’t have anything that “lit me up”. I came back home and felt better physically but also a little empty and lost.
Dealing with a chronic condition really distorted my sense of self and my vision for my life, and it caused me to see myself through the lens of a permanently ill person. I recall completing an incredible 3 day workshop a few years ago, and the personal vision I crafted during that workshop absolutely aligned with who I was then, but isn’t a perfect fit now. The thing is, the choices you make when you’re not at your best are generally not the choices you’d make when you’re feeling fantastic. So, as someone who has improved tremendously from where I was several years ago, AND as someone that finally has the energetic reserves to take on new ambitions, I can comfortably say that my personal vision needs to be recalibrated. I’ve already made some adjustments, but there are more tweaks I’ll make in the future.
It feels great to be back in this space, where I can share the things that light me up. And, I’m thankful for all of you who have stuck around. I look forward to connecting with you all in the weeks and months to come. Take care of yourselves, and I’ll talk to you all soon.
Bronze Butterfly 