Though I loved writing, I took a long break from it. Part of that was due to more responsibilities offline, but the other part of it was a lack of inspiration. I found myself writing but not feeling connected to anything that I came up with. I wish I had been more satisfied with what I created, but I’m also pleased that I didn’t publish anything that felt uninspired or “flat”. I’d rather wait a while, and make sure that what I’m writing feels great, than to publish mediocre work.
Recently, the focus of my writing has been journaling. It had been years since I wrote in my journal regularly: I had fallen out of practice due to severe pain in my hands and wrists. At one time, I was once able to easily jot down my thoughts, filling 10 or more pages quickly. But then, during the course of being treated for fibromyalgia, there were several years where I couldn’t write profusely anymore. In fact, there was a point in time where I was unable to write more than a half page – a full page, at most – in a 5 inch by 7 inch journal. I was crushed over my inability to journal as much as I liked, and, even after doing physical therapy and building up a bit of endurance, I was reluctant to test my ability to write extensively.
I can write a bit more extensively than I did when the pain was at its worst, but I still have some issues with writing (namely, the only way to write comfortably is to write a bit messier than I used to). That being said, I’m still happy that I’m better than I once was. So for the time being, I haven’t been working on anything that I intend to publish: I’ve just been getting myself back into the practice of using my journal to sort through my internal dialogue. Of course, I’ve been writing on this blog, too, so that’s been great for helping me get back into a writing routine of sorts.
Are you working on anything right now? I’d love to hear all about it!
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